There is much sadness in life and we all find our own ways of dealing with it. Mine was to hide from it or lock it away. I am at peace with it now but need answers. I still shed a tear from time to time imagining and knowing what I lost. It was the first of 2 heartbreaks. My dad died 2 years later from cancer. I get strength from within somehow and I am lucky to have 3 fabulous children. Talking about my life story helps me come to terms with it all. From great sadness to immense joy with my family. Thank you for taking the time to respond to my post. David x